Expectant

When I googled the definition, expectant is an adjective that means “having or showing an excited feeling that something is about to happen, especially something pleasant and interesting.”

On the morning that Tim proposed, he left a voice mail saying that it was going to be the best day and he would see me later that night.

I was pretty sure he was going to propose that Thursday. I was excited and expectant. Definitely getting engaged was something ‘pleasant and interesting.’

However, I didn’t dress up. I didn’t prepare a fun dessert or even do my hair. As I recall, I was in some lounge attire and was sweeping crumbs off the kitchen counter when he rushed in to ask me to spend the rest of our lives together.

Even though I was expecting it, I didn’t prepare myself for it. Why was that?

Perhaps I didn’t want to be disappointed if what I was expecting didn’t happen? I don’t know.

I do that with God too. I say I expect Him to show up and to show off. But I don’t prepare myself for it. Why is that?

King David wrote, “Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly.” (Psalm 5:3)

Morning, Lord. Here is what I’m asking. Can’t wait to see what You do.

And then I take everything back in my own hands. Sigh.

I can’t imagine being in the early days of AD (or even the days of BC) and waiting expectantly for God to rescue Jerusalem.

Of course, now we are awaiting His return. Somedays I look so forward to it. And then there are others when I think, people I know aren’t ready for it. I’m not ready for it.

These are the days of preparation. These are the days we are to be telling others about Christ. These are the days to live fully surrendered to what He has for us and to realize what He is doing and to look expectantly at what He will do.

Morning, Lord. I’m looking for You and can’t wait to see how the day unfolds. Get me out of the way. Help me to see You move. All for your glory. Amen.